My University Life
My name is Kamila.
I am from Karaganda.
I have studied at Nazarbayev Intellectual School.
And now I am a 2nd-year student at Nazarbayev Univesity.
Here my story begins...
I had entered a foundation year program in 2016.
Looking back at that time it seems that me now and I 2,5 years ago are different persons: by characters, by decisions and by everything else. I don't know how to start my story, because I don't have one at all. There are a lot of things happen to me for that time, but they are all so different and not connected to each other. The only connection is that everything happened at the walls of the university. Is it enough to make them linked and become a common story? Let's see what we can get from it!
I didn't want to enter the Nazarbayev University. I didn't like it. As every straight-A puple at school with heightened self-esteem, I dreamed about the world's best universities. I was quickly lowered from dreams by my parents. 16 is too early. No one will take care of you there. It is too far away. It is too costly.
The only option was to stay at Kazakhstan. If in Kazakhstan, if get a qualitative education, then there are no other choices than NU.
In childhood, I dreamed to work at Greenpeace. Getting older, my dream changed in the direction of NASA. I wanted to work in NASA so hard so that I decided to learn chemistry and biology, even though, I didn't like them much. I had been learning it because I thought that only chemists, physics, astronomers, biologics, and head of NASA are able to work there. And in a truth, I fell in love with chemistry and biology. I passed Cambridge exams with A* and B grades, for biology and chemistry, respectively. And the, I entered to Nazarbayev University Foundation Year Program in 2016, on the major of chemisrty. The whole year I spent learning chemistry and biology until I realized that it is not mine. So, I decided to change major for the first time.
PART 2
My choice fell on a math major.
Still school of Science and Technology, but completely different direction. In fall 2017 I was in a deep depression. I had huge psycological pressure from my ex-friend, who had huge problems and tried to shift her pain on me. In winter, 2016 I lost 2 close people. I was completely shuttered by everything around me. I shut out of my friends, had no new friends, and just became closed. At that time my study was one of the reasons for my harsh and sad mood. I decided to quit math major. It was my 2nd time of changing everything.
My mom and dad are great people. And most important, great parents. When I arrived home at the beginning of winter break, my mom immediately understood that something wrong happening to me. She asked for a talk. And we talked. A lot. For a long time. I cried. I had an emotional breakdown. I hated myself for the thoughts that I wanted to cut off all relations with my ex-friend. I thought that I am a bad friend. I couldn't think a lot, it hurt. My mom told me some very important things. She found out words which I had to hear. I am infinitely thankful and glad that she is my Mom. Step by step I became okay. I tried my best to help to my ex-friend and looking that I couldn't do it, with a hard feeling I stop our friendship. If she doesn't want to help herself, there nothing I can do to her. She had a psychiatrist, I don't think that I am a better professional in helping the person in depression, when I myself look and feel like a thundercloud.
Part 3
I proceed to the School of Humanities and Social Sciences.
Now I am an economist. I am a very smart student of the economy. And looking at my successes in this field, and listening to my happy feelings, I know that I am in a right place. I have wonderful friends who love me, and whom I love. I am happy and laugh a lot. I spent every second of my time with pleasure, even when I study. I like what I study, no matter it is hard (and getting harder course by course). I like everything that happens to me. I am infinitely thankful to the universe for what I have. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
aboutnow
University is a place where I for the first time see me growing and becoming an adult. I am 100% will be happy to go back to school, but it is just because I miss my parents, old friends, and carelessness. Despite this, a university gave me more than I could ever imagine. I was a part of Nomad Debate Club, and even after quitting them I saved warm relationships with their participants. I used to follow the AIESEC international student organization (also quit) and had a huge and significantly important experience for my future. I do not regret my choices. They took me to the right place, made me stronger and happier. I have best friends here, and it is so cool! And now I am proud that I am a student of such a wonderful university and a part of such a wonderful family :)
Below there is a video about my most awkward and weird situations happen to me in university or during it. Now I take a course on Writing for Digital Media. It is one of the most useful and advantageous courses I ever had. If not this course, probably I never do an animated video (moreover, shooted one). So, just take a minute to relax and enjoy my art!
P. S. I didn't expect that video will go up to 6 minutes, but I promise I tried my best to make it as shorter as possible. Don't be mad, please ^-^
Best regards, Kamila Smailova. 201525208
